Word Count - 1007
Previous - 15, 895
Total - 16, 902
One day after writing about persistence, bamm! A couple of discouraging things happened and I spent a while asking myself if I wanted to continue. What if people really don't like what I write? What if I never sell enough books? What if....?
Insecurity if the thief of dreams. And it attacks us when we're down. Oh, yes it does. Boom! See? I knew I wasn't good enough! If I was, then more people would have bought the book! Never mind that I'm a brand new writer with a teeny, tiny fan base. Never mind that I know I have imagination and talent. It must not be enough, because if it was...
Well, I got over it. Mostly. I'm still a little down because I do have big dreams. But the dreams aren't dead yet. A little crumpled around the edges maybe, but not dead. A little singed in spots. But you know what? I'm not gonna quit. Probably because I'm so darned stubborn. Not willing to say "uncle."
Writing is a lot of work. Anyone who says otherwise is crazy. I love to write. I love to bring new characters and worlds to life. Well, duh...some of you read the Crazy Blog Serial so you know. But at no time has it been EASY! So it's a tad discouraging that more people didn't choose to read what I wrote. I suspect that every single author feels that way. This is our baby! Our creation! Where are the readers to enjoy our wonderful work?
They're out there. Someday they'll stumble across something else I wrote and say, "Hmmmm, I wonder if she's written anything else?" And then I'll get a pleasant surprise when this book suddenly finds more readers. So I'll look forward to that. And in the meantime, I'll push that thief of dreams back behind me.