Ah, eating has become a new adventure. I've fallen down a hole in the ground and now I'm in a strange new land. I know, Amarinda, I should feel right at home. I suspect I will soon enough. Two weeks ago when I first received my glucometer, the house hunk and I went out and bought a bunch of sugar-free/low sugar food. It seemed to us that was an appropriate measure.So much to my dismay--after eating sugar free ice cream the last two weeks--and yes, we were measuring (portion control, etc., etc., etc...) I discovered that there are actually the same number of carbohydrates in the sugar free as there is in the regular ice cream. Guess what I'm supposed to count? Yep, you guessed it.
In fact, the sugar free stuff often has a different type of glucose used as a sugar substitute that is worse for diabetics than regular plain old garden variety sugar. Ack! Low sugar yogurt? Bad. Sugar free candy? Bad. As with all things a little bit is okay, but pigging out on it because it's sugar free? Not so good. Ah, I am so sad. There are several other things that fall in the same category. I thought I was helping and couldn't figure out why my sugar numbers shot through the roof.
But probably my worst--number one worst--sugar shooter is corn. Corn of course is classified as a bread, but for me it's worse than rice or pizza or plain old sugar. Not sure what happened, but yeah, corn is a big no-no. Good thing I don't particularly like corn, right?
Anyway, I've spent a lot of time the last couple days thinking about food. I thought I would never say this, but I don't even want to look at the stuff. The house hunk comes in the door at night and asks what's for dinner? My answer--I don't know and I don't care. There is nothing that will put you off something faster than being stuck having to deal with it all the time.
I've finally fallen to that lowest ebb. Not even chocolate sounds appealing. I know, I know. But I feel just like my friend, the hamster, up there. "It has how many carbohydrates?"
Anny
It's sounds hard and pukeable but the benefits are there...you just have to get to through the pukeable stuff and you will
ReplyDeleteThis is when you pull out that journal you're making and point at an acceptable meal in the delivery section and have someone bring it. Get that pizza we were talking about. You already researched it so you know you can have a slice. There'll be some left for tomorrow too and after then you'll be ready to go back to dealing with it again. You just need to retrain your way of thinking and once you do it won't be so hard all the time.
ReplyDeleteAw, Anny, here's a {{{{{HUG}}}}}
ReplyDeleteObsessing about something only makes it worse. Once you get into the groove and don't have to think about it any more, it will be a lot easier.
Here--go watch this video about eating, and I promise you'll feel more cheerful:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjMiDZIY1bM
I warned you about the corn:)
ReplyDeleteHugs...I know it's tough to change your eating habits and learn new rules. It took me about six months to realize he couldn't eat some of the stuff he was used to eating.
May be the same philosophy behind why I love to cook but then never want to eat it.
ReplyDeleteI watched my grandmother struggle through this and watched her cheat, then watched her die. Take care of yourself Anny. There's only one of you.
Wow! I must have felt particularly whiny last night. Hmmm. It's really not that bad!
ReplyDeleteElissa, that is a wicked video!
The rest of you, thank you for your encouragement!
{{{{{HUGS}}}}} And you're entitled to whine when you need to - this is a huge adjustment and I imagine it's going to take some time to get used to.
ReplyDeleteHugs. Take care, you. We need you healthy!
ReplyDeleteFor once I have no appetite - I think my meds didn't play well together.
ReplyDeleteKeep your eye on the main goal - health. I need to do the same again.
I don't know and I don't care. That's a good one, Anny. Hang in there with this stuff. ARGH! Keep in mind this is all new. Pretty soon you'll KNOW it all.
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